"Grieving the loss of a child is a process, it begins the day your child passes and ends the day the parent joins them."

Friday, October 8, 2010


This is what you're left with after the sudden unexpected loss of your child.

I hate the fact that I have to take these med's.

I hate the fact that I need them to get through the day.













Personally, I'd like to throw them all away, but my doctor says
"you HAVE to be on these med's."
Truthfully, I HAVE to have them.
Can't get through my days without the stupid med's.
Like I said.


Kristen said...

It does suck! All of it sucks so badly for you!

Praying for you.


Tina said...

God how I wish things were different. I hate it that you have to take these meds. It all doesn't make sense.

Thinking and praying for you, I wish I could help, but I know noone really can. We are all there to listen. (((Hugs)))

Groves said...

Another woman whose child died wrote, "I had difficulty breathing. I was constantly sighing out loud. There's no refuge from the pain. You crave peace and there is none. It's an awful place to be. The pain is unrelenting." (Beyond Tears: Living After Losing a Child)

Of course I thought of the horrible, relentless suffering that you are enduring since Carly's death. No pill can make it stop, and how well you know that. Supposedly it makes going forward possible, but it never changes the hell of what is happening. I wish there WAS a pill for that.

You have every reason in the world to hate all of this. I am so sorry it is happening. I often think about your post which talked about wanting to rewind life. That is exactly it.

Carly, if only you could come back to your family!

Hating all of it with you,

Cathy in Missouri

Anne and Whitney: Up, Down and All Around said...

you are right - it totally sucks! i hope day by day you can ease into not needing them, somehow!!!! always thinking about you guys!

Unknown said...

it does suck and i am pissed for you...thank you for writing...I am thinking of you ALL often...smiles

Groves said...

You may have already seen this on another blog, but when I read it today, I thought of you and Carly right away:


A beautiful story of how they welcomed their daughter into the world, just like you did.

Loving Carly and her mom,

Cathy in Missouri

Sheila said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. It does suck BIG TIME! It is so unfair and difficult. Just keep breathing in and out. Praying for you and your family.

Far Above Rubies said...

I know it's not easy. I'm sorry for your loss and that you were advised to take meds. It is difficult.

Praying for you.

Windmills and Tulips

Tausha said...

I bet you hate taking them but I pray that you will and they will help. I had to take some when I placed my little girl up for adoption. I hated that I had to take them but it was the only thing that got me through it safetly. Your in my prayers continuously.

Posh Totty said...

Thinking of you Xxxx