I find myself day dreaming quite a bit these past several months. Most recently, I day dream about how Carly would be today. Today, right now. November 17, 2010. Wondering how much she would have changed. How much she would have grown. I do this quite often. Sometimes I shouldn't, because I do it while I'm driving. Thankfully, I don't really go anywhere. Just to counseling every week and to the cemetery and to my parents. That's about the extent of my driving. Probably a good thing too, because of my day dreaming I've been known to cross the center line, hit the curbs while driving down a stupid main road of the town I go to counseling in and drive slow as a snail, only to speed up like a speed demon. Ashleigh can attest to my driving. I've been told, that people who are going through the grieving process, "should be extremely careful while driving.
The following is only a glimpse of what goes through my mind every single day..
how tall would Carly be today?
how long would her beautiful hair be?
how many new words would be in her vocabulary now?
what Carly would be doing today?
what would Carly's favorite TV show be now?
what would her favorite book be now?
what would her favorite toy be now?
would she be learning to read more words?
would she have taken off with her math skills?
as predicted by her teachers
what would she be learning at school?
what would she want from "Ho Ho" aka; Santa?
probably EVERYTHING advertised on TV!
would she have wanted to sit on "Ho Ho's" lap this year?
she wouldn't last year, she stood back and observed him!
what would her favorite song be now?
how would her looks have changed over the past 6 1/2 months?