"Grieving the loss of a child is a process, it begins the day your child passes and ends the day the parent joins them."

Thursday, May 10, 2012

The Dream

As I blogged about the other day, May 8th was 7 months since our fire. 7 months since we last saw our son. It was a hard day. Harder than I thought it would have been.

I talked with Ashleigh on the 8th. She told me about, The Dream she had in the early morning hours of May 8th. Brad was in it. Actually, he appeared in her dream. She told me that he walked up to her, she turned to look at him, asking him, "What are you doing here?" He was all smiles. Very happy. His response, "I'm okay, Ash." (he has called Ashleigh, Ash, since he started talking. I don't think he ever called her Ashleigh!) He went on to say, "Tell mom and dad." How about that?? It made tears run down my face. I think he actually came to her that night.

I've yet to be able to dream about Brad. I've had many dreams about Carly. They've been awful. Very disturbing. But, I've had no dreams about Brad. It makes me sad, really. However, I'm so happy that he appeared in Ashleigh's dream and that he was happy. Like Ashleigh said, "I guess there's some comfort in that."

Paul had such a hard time hearing about that dream. He cried and cried and cried, as we stood at the graves of our children. We both decided that it had to be a sign. That he must of came to Ashleigh during the night. I've never really believed in that kind of stuff before, but this is makes me rethink many things.

Sure, we've been having some pretty strong signs of Brad's presence around here. Carly's too, for that matter. But nothing like, The Dream that Ashleigh had the other night.


I'm trying to do a blog makeover. Please pay no attention to the jumbled, under construction look!


Becca said...

Dreams are powerful things. I've often thought that there's so much more to them than subconscious ramblings. And often they'll open our eyes to a new way of seeing things. That was definitely a powerful one. (((hugs)))

Stephanie said...

Absolutely a sign!! Hang on to that sign Joanie!! He is ok !!!

Love and hugs!!

Lacey said...

What an amazing experience for Ashleigh! Definitely a sign. Always praying for you Joany!

my family said...

what a wonderful dream. i like your header

Cindy said...

Dreams can be like beautiful memories! I hope Ashleigh's dream brings smiles.

Darlene said...

I'm a believer and yes it's a very valid sign. I love you new header. I keep you and your family close in thoughts and prayers.

porchwork said...

Signs are so real. Our loved ones want us to be happy and when they can they leave signs. Even when we don't know it they are close by. Sometimes certain people are more open to the signs and they get the messages. Maybe this time it was Ashleigh. Maybe they had to be more direct with you and open and close the garage door! Either way, what a wonderful blessing to you on Mother's Day.